Thursday, 2 June 2016

Losing a Pet


I keep trying to write this post but end up being overwhelmed with emotion, resulting in me being in the company of several soggy tissues, lush. I feel like I need to share this, and I'll get it out there eventually... 

Several mini milk ice lollies later I am ready. I would prefer wine but hey-ho, drunk Kat wouldn't make much sense.

Last week, some of you may know that one of my little guinea pigs, Squeak, passed away quite suddenly... The day before my 21st to be exact, brilliant timing Squeaky. I won't go into details as I'm not even sure myself what actually happened, but you know when you just know that something is wrong with your pet? She deteriorated within literally a couple of hours and it was all very sad, rather traumatising but mostly heartbreaking. 

I guess I'm writing this because I feel my blog is the place where I can talk about anything as I'm essentially sharing my life with you all, and life isn't always cocktails, pizza and smiles. Squeak was the first pet I've owned that has passed away and the couple of days after it happened, I felt empty. I kinda felt like I lost myself which to some may sound so dramatic. The only way I can explain is when you bring a pet up from when they are teeny tiny, they're pretty much a part of you.


Here's a lil back story; So, I decided to buy myself two guinea pigs back in Summer of 2014, basically when I was getting my life back on track. I was due to start college again the following September to gain back some independence but after several chats with my mum... Mostly me showing her funny videos of guinea pigs, we decided that me purchasing two bundles of mischief would also help, and they did. I gained back control of my life, gained responsibility and felt like I had a purpose again, AKA I kicked depression's butt. 

Squeak was the sweetest guinea pig and I miss her daily. To everyone who sent me kind words and messages of encouragement, thank you so much. You made me feel less insane for feeling so heartbroken and reassured me that it's normal to cry. <3


Oh and just in case you were wondering, Bubble is doing absolutely fine and seems quite content with all this extra attention she's getting!

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  1. Such a lovely post. I recently lost my 9 year old bunny Smudge and I felt really empty too, it's awful :( http://www.sequins-and-spirits.co.uk/2016/03/rip-smudge.html After a few months I purchased two new fluffballs which has definitely helped me out, it was nice to know that it's not just me who gets so attached to pets! http://www.sequins-and-spirits.co.uk/2016/05/welcome-to-family-new-pets.html Feel free to check out my blog! :) xxx

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  2. This was heartbreaking to read! I completely understand how you feel! My bunny rabbit passed away suddenly three years ago and I'm still not fully over it, she was the best! I'm well up writing this actually. It does get better though but pets are never forgotten! Sophie x

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  3. Aww sorry to hear the sad news but I know how upsetting losing a pet can be, I recently lost a close pet of mine - my cat called Tinker she was 19 years old my own childhood is this cats life but she started becoming ill and we all agreed it was the kindest thing to do but it was so god damn hard - I cried and miss her a lot thought about her a lot and it was weird getting used to her not sleeping on my bed but time makes it easier - so I understand what your going through

    We also have another cat Spice who is 21yrs and that's gonna be hard when she goes too :(

    Leanne | www.oohsimplething.blogspot.co.uk

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  4. I feel so bad for you loosing your Guinea pig after they helped you with depression! Always here for a lil message bubs xxx

    Jasmine || http://www.blogsallbeautyy.blogspot.co.uk

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  5. So sorry to hear this. Losing a pet is horrible. It's almost like losing a part of yourself, like you said, when you have raised them from a tiny baby to an adult animal. They're great company too, non-judgemental listeners and you know they love you unconditionally. It sounds like you gave Squeak a lovely life though! As everyone's said, it does get easier but don't feel like you should be 'over' it and you're not - everyone is different and your grief is as valid as anyone else's.
    Hope this reaches you feeling a little better.
    Rebecca | Notes From September
    Xx

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  6. I am so sorry to hear of your lost! You are very brace for writing this post! Dog feel embarrassed or ashamed for getting emotional or upset over your pets death, pets are definitely as important as humans within the family, which warrants getting upset when they die. We are all hear for your lovely. Keep going strong! I am glad to see bubble is doing okay fhough xx

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  7. I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my first ever pet last year tragically from a car accident (a cat) and not a day goes by that I don't think about him. He was special for many reasons including the fact he was a stray - my heart still breaks that his life was cut short and that I only had him for barely 18 months. I never understood the pain of losing a pet till it happened to me (I'm a lot older than you!)...they're such a huge part of you, they are family and they're simply the best. I never knew the joy of keeping a pet before and now I can't imagine life without one. Whatever furry friend you have, it's so calming and wonderful to take care of them. It will get easier but you can never forget them. Take your time grieving for Squeak - you're not alone.

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  8. I'm so sorry for your loss, losing a pet is one of the worst things that can happen to you it's heartbreaking. I hope you're ok, you're so brave!

    Ella xx
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  9. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Losing a pet is so hard, it's amazing how much of an impact animals can make on your life. I think your grief is definitely justified.
    xxx

    www.bethanlikes.com

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  10. Aw babes, this is such a sweet post. It's so heart breaking losing a pet, they really are family and mean so much. Hope you're feeling a bit better. Here if you need me! <3 x

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  11. It is super super sad to lose a pet or more like a family member <3 They are so precious! I feel for you, sweetie. A few months ago my mother in law lost their family doggie (Australian terrier) who has been with them for 13 years. They were all devastated. Massive hugs your way & what a lovely little post/tribute to Squeak <3
    xox Nadia
    www.mielandmint.com

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  12. Thank you everyone for your lovely comments, your kind words mean a lot. xxx

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  13. It is the hardest thing when you lose a pet.. especially when they help you get through such a tough time in your life.. pets are literally like family members. Loved your tribute post to Squeak. Sending lots of love to you!
    Saira
    www.throughtheglitterglass.wordpress.com
    xo

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  14. It is the hardest thing when you lose a pet.. especially when they help you get through such a tough time in your life.. pets are literally like family members. Loved your tribute post to Squeak. Sending lots of love to you!
    Saira
    www.throughtheglitterglass.wordpress.com
    xo

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